Been awhile since I’ve blogged anything.. I guess I just haven’t really been in the mood to. Why the sudden change? I need someone to talk to.. or at least someone to understand me tonight. I just need to know that there are still people out there who care. Recently, I’ve just been wanting to shut everyone out and go somewhere else. Somewhere, where there are people like me. I hate the feeling of being played. It sure is awful when you think you know someone and you can be completely wrong. That just makes me skeptical of trusting anyone anymore.
Things Suck.
You know, sometimes things just suck. Sometimes people fuck you over. Other times, you’re the one fucking them over. Shit doesn’t work out the way you want half the time. Then you lay awake at night wondering what the hell. Nostalgia sure gets the best of me. Thinking about all the “what ifs” and the regrets I have. Anyone feel this way? Or is it really just me.
Peter Wolf- Lights Out
Cause I’m feeling a little lovey tonight..
It Gets Better.
I don’t know what you’re going through. I can’t say how you feel or how you will feel. I don’t even have a clue what your situation is but listen; whatever it is that’s going on and however it is that you’re feeling right now, it will get better. You’re going to feel like shit. It’s going to hurt. You’re going to be pissed off at the world at days but it does get better. It may not today, tomorrow, next week, or maybe not even next month! But it does. You’ll begin finding life again. You’ll remember what it feels like to be happy and how it feels like to laugh. You’ll find yourself once again and it’ll be better than the first time.
Temporarily Gone
Now it’s time to lie down. Lie down and rest your eyes. Those eyes have seen enough for today. They’ve seen hurt and others’ pain. They’ve seen inevitable sadness and beautiful beginnings. While sometimes what we see brings a smile to our face, it can also drag a tear down our cheek. So for now, sleep. While you dream, you’re in a place you want to be more than anywhere. Dream as if that’s all you have left to do because while you sleep, you’re temporarily gone from everything you’ve ever have and ever will endure.
I’m Feeling the Distance
I don’t really know where this is going to go. I don’t really know how I feel part of the time. I don’t know if this is going to turn out wonderful or a big regret. Sometimes my feelings may not be totally on you, because part of me has been left behind on him. But I do know that every time I see you, I remember what made me light up the first time. As much as I want you right now, that’s not possible. Although, I do know that the next time I see you, I’ll remember once again why I thought the distance was all worth it.
Watercolor Skull
And this is what I want to do for the rest of my life; Art.
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